5 generations

5 generations

Grandma Dee, Cindy, Brecka, Jacob and Great gma Holloway.
This past week after attending my Grandma Dee’s funeral I was blessed to have heard several times how much I resembled my grandma when she was younger. I was so glad that there were so many beautiful pictures capturing her life. As much as I am honored to resemble my grandma I am more honored if I can resemble her character. What a great legacy she is leaving behind one of great faith and lasting impression on so many lives. Love you grandma!


“gotta have luvs”

I am not sure how many of you have seen the commercial advertising the LUVS brand diapers. They are referencing how the parent behaved with the first child and then how they behaved with the second child. It is pretty funny and very accurate at least to a point in this household.

I try not to compare one child to another but its hard, especially when you go to the doctors office and they compare your child to others. Percentiles, milestones and cuteness…its hard not to try and “keep up with the Joneses”. Facebook has increased this pressure to compare as people post pictures and brag about their child  ( I do it too). Most of the time it can be helpful but at times jealousy can enter in the picture, and then you make it into an annoying post competition.

Comparing siblings is where I am finding my problem. “Well with Jacob we did this and it worked.” Parker is so different from Jacob in a lot of ways but there are some similarities. I am just trying to do my best at making changes where necessary to accomidate her needs. I will still compare growth and milestones, but not in a way that discounts how wonderfully unique they both are. Continue reading


In limbo

As most of you who know me and my family, you know we are planning on leaving to return to Uganda. As we prepare it has its challenges, first and foremost we don’t have all the monthly pledges yet and have the humbling task of trying to secure those. I am trying to mentally, physically and spiritually prepare for the here and now, the act of going and then the life we will lead there.

Mental struggles- Trying to wrap my head, heart and soul around the journey of the whole process. I sometimes focus too much on the future and get frustrated that it isn’t happening now. Recently I have been really trying to enjoy the time leading up to the change and that it is just as important. I at times will just overlook the important role that I currently play as wife, mother and friend.

Physical- So we are going to be shipping our belongings in a sea container and when talking with the company they informed us that they will be doing all the packing. Ahhh I am so struggling with giving that control. You maybe thinking that is awesome someone packs it all and moves it for you. Well my problem is this I want it done my way, I don’t want anything to get damaged (regardless of replacement promises), its too last minute and then boom we have an empty house. It takes careful planning and we are told to not do any packing. The reason being that it will then get through customs without much of a problem (so they say).

Spiritually- Having been to Uganda before and knowing the spiritual warfare it can take on myself, I am also working on my life. I am working on strengthening my relationship with God, husband and children.

I will leave you with this encouragement, whatever you are doing or preparing for remember that you should also focus on the here and now. You don’t want to miss a blessing along your journey.


“me” time

What is “me” time well I am still trying to figure what that means for me. When you are single this is no problem, because you are all that matters. When you get married then it gets a little trickier, but still doable. Now factor in a child and then two and bam you have very little “me” time.

I am not asking for much really, I would be happy most days if I could just shower without having to play “peekaboo” around the curtain to entertain my very dependent 9 month old. Don’t get me wrong I love my kids and my husband, but a girl needs time to herself. I need time to have devotion, relax and get a little of my sanity back.

My dilemma is that since staying home full time and having matt now working from home it leads to too much time with the ones I love and then leads to a lack of alone time. I need something constructive to do outside the home that is not going to affect our income. I am thinking that I need to do some more investigating, but I am leaning toward more writing, crafting and reading.

My ultimate goal in this all is to get closer to God and desire the time I do get to spend with my family.