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Truth because Fear is a Liar

I am sick of all the lies! “Fear is a liar” by Zach Williams is an amazing song and I heard it a lot on our trip in America. (I love that there is Christian music that you can tune into on the radio without streaming.) Mostly I am sick of people in our lives that continue to spew out lies to others about us; lies to us about themselves. I am sick of not being able to trust someone at their word and take it at face value. I am over the people who lie so much they start to even believe their lies and then try and come “clean” about the truth only to speak more lies about others.

It is really hard for me to make real relationships in Uganda; relationships with Ugandans, expats, and people who are in America. It is hard to be open and allow people into my world; the thoughts that I have and the things that I hold dear. Hard, when I have to have relationships over the internet; internet that is less than reliable, expensive and now even being taxed. Hard to have relationships with Ugandans because we have been burned more times than we can count by people who know how to talk the talk and then screw you over the moment you let any guard down. Expats are hard to open up to for fear of judgment, lack of dependability because of frequent turnover and they too are very guarded about what they let others know about them. They too have been taken advantage of and lied to by the people of the world.

I am not saying that this problem exists only because we live in Uganda. We have plenty of pre-Uganda liars in our life. We have people who are family that have held major lies, who cover up sin and deception. I have been lied to recently and will continue to be lied to because I understand that there is sin in the world. Lying is a sin and sin is everywhere, but I am still really sick and tired of lies and liars.

So where do I go from here? I have to trust people and I have to have faith in people. I am called to forgive people, but how do I stay safe from the lies and the liars? How do I make sure that I am always open and honest and also not putting up a façade? Often like the song “Fear is a liar” I think the reason people choose to lie is out of fear. Fear that they are not good enough on their own, fear that they are not going to be the right one for the job, fear that they can’t stand up to someone so they just lie and run away from their problems.

But I also think that people often try and live a life of fantasy; they try and live a life that they want and they want others to see them as living. They lie to themselves that it won’t hurt anyone or affect anyone if they tell “little lies”. They lie because they don’t believe that there is God our Almighty Father who knows our thoughts, fears, intentions, actions and the words we will speak before we speak them. They don’t want to believe that God is here for us and he is asking us to first just listen to Him. To listen to the truth and not believe the lies that we tell ourselves or we hear from others. It all comes down to the fact you have to be in the Word of God the BIBLE and believe in Jesus Christ for any real truth to rule your life. We are all born into this world as sinners and one of those sins is lying. We can’t overcome that sin if we continue to listen to the ultimate liar; Satan who tells us we don’t need Jesus and we deserve things so it’s okay to lie to get what we deserve.

So today I am praying for all the liars the ones I know and the ones that I don’t. I am praying that they find Jesus, they confess and they turn their life of lies into truths. I will continue to live my life as honestly as I can and tell Satan to go away. I am praying for strength to form relationships and not let fear get in the way. I am not going to deprive my happiness I am casting my fear in the fire, because fear is a liar. Pray for me because this struggle is a daily decision that has to be consciously made. My prayers for you is that you can find truth in Jesus and that He will guide you as you cast out your fears.

Lyrics to Fear is a liar and link to his video

When he told you you’re not good enough
When he told you you’re not right
When he told you you’re not strong enough
To put up a good fight
When he told you you’re not worthy
When he told you you’re not loved
When he told you you’re not beautiful
That you’ll never be enough

Fear, he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
‘Cause fear he is a liar

When he told you were troubled
You’ll forever be alone
When he told you you should run away
You’ll never find a home
When he told you you were dirty
And you should be ashamed
When he told you you could be the one
That grace could never change

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
‘Cause fear he is a liar

Let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel

Let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel

Let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel

Oh, let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel

Oh, fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
‘Cause fear he is a liar

‘Cause fear he is a liar

 

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The U.S.A trip

I am back in Uganda after 3.5 weeks in the U.S. what a trip! My husband and I with our 2 kids and 23 soccer players along with frankly 1 good chaperone and 4 other adults. It was quite the experience travelling from Uganda to Dubai, Dubai to Chicago where we had to go through customs, get all the bags, go to a different airline and check in and then RUN to our next flight to Detroit. We had an amazing experience in Detroit. I was overwhelmed by the amazing host families and I was less than excited about being a true Soccer Mom driving a 15 passenger van around the entire Detroit/Rochester/Canton/Westland areas. But my rule in my van was I am playing my praise music and you can put your earbuds in and listen to yours if you don’t like it. And I cannot say enough how much I love using GPS in the Good Ole United States. In Uganda you use it and you get taken to places no one should go and the lady pronounces every street (if you could call them streets) wrong. But in America they even reroute you if there is construction or delays happening!

I was brought to tears of joy when I was able to meet so many of Matt’s contacts in Michigan who were amazing hosts. We had some that were mutual friends and one that was my contact but overwhelmingly they were families that Matt had known through church and other childhood events. It was more emotional because without going into any specifics it wasn’t the best time connecting with Matt’s family. We did get to connect with a few but there are a lot going on and something to really be praying for. I saw with my own eyes people who have impacted my husband’s life from an early very critical point in his life and help shape him into the man he is today. I got to see families that stepped up and took him in as their own son, coaches that inspired him to love the game of soccer, churches that helped him learn about God and come to follow Jesus Christ. I was so blessed to witness those very people show up again at a critical time in our lives and again step up and show encouragement and love. God was present on this trip in many ways and for that I am thankful.

We then took a flight to Minneapolis and as we were in the airport I was sending messages back and forth with a missionary friend who was trying to get me a place for myself and my two littles to stay while we were in Minneapolis. God again is amazing (no surprise there) but she was able to find a great former missionary couple who lived just minutes from all the activities that were being done in the tournament. They were such a lovely couple and showed a genuine interest in investing in our lives even for the short time we were there.

My parents came and got us driving with a less than reliable vehicle all the way from Beatrice, Ne to Minneapolis and were able to take us home with them so we could have much needed family time. The Lord looked out for us and allowed the car to make it home. I was able to spend time with my parents and my grandpa along with visiting with some dear people who I would have otherwise not had the time to visit with. Matt was a trooper as he managed 3 groups of kids because two players who were older played as a guest on a team and then our only girl also played as a guest on a team. He had to get people where they needed to go and had to rely on the other adults on the trip to also help out (some did better than others- that’s a whole ‘nother story :p) I missed being his support and realized we really do make a great team.

The team travelled by bus to meet us in Omaha and again amazing people in our lives stepped up to the challenge of hosting us. I put the role of soccer mom on again as I drove a 15 passenger van and my mom also was the soccer grandma helping with transportation. This time it was a little bitter sweet as I was able to share my story of how missions is for a mom and wife for the last 10 years and how life has changed over that time in Beatrice. I was reminded of the hard times and the great times and the amazing work that God has done and continues to do. I missed out on sharing and being a part of what I would have called my childhood church as Matt took the soccer boys there, but also felt a bit of a disconnect with what that church now means to me as we have spent so much time away. It is a challenge to feel like anything is home when you live away and people move and things just change.

However, when we flew to Dallas a place I have never called home it actually felt very much like home. I got to stay with a wonderful family that I knew in Michigan and the church family there at Skillman truly get what it means to be the body of Christ they embraced our team, they hosted us in their youth room, they drove us around to different activities, they let us share our stories and spent time listening to us. Even when things didn’t go as planned they helped us process things and gave us encouragement and advice. It was the perfect way to end an amazing trip through the United States.

Would I do it all again…maybe ha! This trip was truly unique and I honestly believe it was ordained to happen when it did every single location, person and time all lined up just as God wanted it to. I also believe that it was more than just myself that was impacted and for that I am truly grateful. God works in amazing, mysterious ways and for that I am humbled and in awe of just how amazing our God is.

Thank you to all the amazing people who stepped up to God’s calling and made this trip a success. I hope you were blessed through your time with us and keep praying for us and the people who you met along the way. For those of you we didn’t get to see but sent us a gift or just followed our journey thank you for your prayers and your gifts. God Bless you!!!