As most of you know we have had a rocky road this last year. I want to get real honest with you I have been trying to figure out how to keep spiritually full. I have tried to take care of my health but that has had its ups and downs. I was able to get away several different times to get my hair done, massage or a retreat away for a day or two. I have tried getting involved with women’s groups and meet new friends. I have read topical books on the Bible and have also read the Bible. I have journaled and blogged. I have prayed alone and together with others. I have colored and painted. The truth is that life is stressful and I don’t always know what I should do to keep myself mentally healthy. I am trying hard to not burn out spiritually. In church they have been talking a lot of how to balance life and ministry.
Today’s sermon really put it all into perspective that we are not defined by our qualifications. Paul is reminding the Colossians that our identity is in Christ Jesus. Our eternal life doesn’t start after you die it begins when we accept Christ. My desire should be to honor God and not to worry about the other roles that I have been placed in.
So I have been reading the Bible intentionally to read it in a year, this gives me accountability to daily get into the Word. I just started and I have found it hard to follow a times what the heck Job is talking about as well as all the others. But I am really intrigued by chapter 38 where God is explaining how he is powerful and it gives a great picture of how he created the universe. At school I taught 3-5 year olds the story of creation as it is found in Genesis, but I think that if I were to teach it to an older group of kids I would definitely read Job 38.
4 “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! Who stretched a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings set, or who laid its cornerstone—
7 while the morning stars sang together and all the angels shouted for joy?
8 “Who shut up the sea behind doors when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment and wrapped it in thick darkness,
10 when I fixed limits for it and set its doors and bars in place,
11 when I said, ‘This far you may come and no farther; here is where your proud waves halt’?
12 “Have you ever given orders to the morning, or shown the dawn its place,
13 that it might take the earth by the edges and shake the wicked out of it?
14 The earth takes shape like clay under a seal; its features stand out like those of a garment.
15 The wicked are denied their light, and their upraised arm is broken.
16 “Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been shown to you? Have you seen the gates of the deepest darkness?
18 Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth? Tell me, if you know all this.
19 “What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside?
20 Can you take them to their places? Do you know the paths to their dwellings?
21 Surely you know, for you were already born! You have lived so many years!
22 “Have you entered the storehouses of the snow or seen the storehouses of the hail,
23 which I reserve for times of trouble, for days of war and battle?
24 What is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed, or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth?
25 Who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain, and a path for the thunderstorm,
26 to water a land where no one lives, an uninhabited desert,
27 to satisfy a desolate wasteland and make it sprout with grass?
28 Does the rain have a father? Who fathers the drops of dew?
29 From whose womb comes the ice? Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens
30 when the waters become hard as stone, when the surface of the deep is frozen?
31 “Can you bind the chains of the Pleiades? Can you loosen Orion’s belt?
32 Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons or lead out the Bear with its cubs?
33 Do you know the laws of the heavens? Can you set up God’s dominion over the earth?
34 “Can you raise your voice to the clouds and cover yourself with a flood of water?
35 Do you send the lightning bolts on their way? Do they report to you, ‘Here we are’?
36 Who gives the ibis wisdom or gives the rooster understanding?
37 Who has the wisdom to count the clouds? Who can tip over the water jars of the heavens
38 when the dust becomes hard and the clods of earth stick together?
39 “Do you hunt the prey for the lioness and satisfy the hunger of the lions
40 when they crouch in their dens or lie in wait in a thicket?
41 Who provides food for the raven when its young cry out to God and wander about for lack of food?
It goes on for another few chapters until Job repents in chapter 42…
“I know, Lord, that you are all-powerful; that you can do everything you want.
3 You ask how I dare question your wisdom when I am so very ignorant.
I talked about things I did not understand, about marvels too great for me to know.
4 You told me to listen while you spoke and to try to answer your questions.
5 In the past I knew only what others had told me, but now I have seen you with my own eyes.
6 So I am ashamed of all I have said and repent in dust and ashes.”
Wow! I have learned that even though I have had challenges this last year (non of which were as bad as Job experienced). I have realized I could see it through the eyes of Job and we read that he had a mix of emotions. He came finally to the conclusion that he may never know what God had in mind for him, but that God will do what he wants. To stay faithful through it all because there will be an end to the trials. You will come out of the storm with more knowledge and understanding, God will restore you and God loves you. I don’t know what the future holds, but I always hold on to the promises of the scriptures. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord plans for peace and not evil to give you a future and a hope.
I write this to give hope to someone else who is going through a storm in their life, a battle like Job. Keep trying to find a way to connect with God and make room for your own mental health through it all. I tend to think that I am being selfish when I take time to care for myself, but this last year have realized if I don’t take care of myself, I can’t effectively take care of others and do the calling that God has for me.